Category: Life

In a Family of Five

In a family of five, you always seem to have something to worry about. No, that was wrong – not something, but someone! My sibilings are in their late 30s, early 40s, my parents are in their early 70s. When a sickness or weird symptoms suddenly occur, you immediately start to worry. At least I do, my family members too.

I always think of the worst. I really do believe there’s something like carcinophobia (at least there are posts about that but no wiki article yet) and I think I’ve got it. To some extend. I don’t run to doctors right away when I feel pain somewhere but I think about cancer a lot. I’m worried about getting it although I do believe, the older we get, the more we have a chance to all get it somewhere sometime. I’m much more worried about a family member getting it, especially the parents.

I do believe that you can hardly influence if you get it or not. Sure, I try to eat healthy most days, I don’t eat burnt food with a black crust, I eat fruit and veggies daily (a lot!) BUT – I live in a city with many cars (exhaust gases I breathe), I like to sunbathe, …, I think through environmental influences nowadays you’re lucky to not get cancer.

To not worry so much and just hit the OFF button of the brain would be great sometimes. A lot of times, actually.

Let’s just hope that all the people we love will live a long and healthy life. That would be so great!

Holidays

So I took next week off of work. Yay!
I’m going to make a detox cure which contains 4 x 500ml of fruit juices and 1 soup for either lunch or the evening. I’m making this for the first time and for five days. I wonder how it goes and if I’m going to be in a bad mood the whole time because I get no decent food 🙂

Core needle biopsy / Stanzbiopsie

It’s done, I had a core needle biopsy today.
It didn’t hurt at all – now, seven hours later, of course I feel a bit of pain.
Here’s the procedure:

  • Before she started anything she disinfected my left breast with spray
  • First I became three needles with anesthesia into my left breast. One puncture before, one over and one behind the Fibroadenoma (FA). That didn’t hurt.
  • Then, with a scalpel, the doctor cut a little part of the skin. I don’t know how long the cut is yet, I’ll know that Friday morning, when I can take the band-aid off.
  • Next she put the “hollow needle” close to my FA. I looked at it going into my breast on the ultrasound monitor. It looked like it went in a few centimeters deep – but everything’s bigger on the monitor, it probably was only 1-2 centimeters? I don’t know, forgot to ask. The diameter of the hollow needle was about 3-4 millimeters. Quite thick, I thought.
  • The doctor and her assistant then showed me how the sound will be when the needle goes into the FA to take a sample. It sounds like a stapler.
  • Then she took four samples of the tissue. It took about five minutes. Each time before the needle shot into my breast she fixated the hollow needle so that it doesn’t slip away. Every time before she did that she asked me “ready” and after I nodded she took a sample.
  • The FA started bleeding, which I didn’t expect and which gave me an unpleasant feeling, but she said that’s normal.

I got a compression bandage around my boobs, could hardly breathe. Over the cut I got another band-aid which I have to leave on for four days, no water is allowed to get close to it either. Just like with every cut, I guess.
I’ll get my results on Thursday, Valentine’s Day. Let’s hope that Cupid shot a good tumor with his bow today 🙂

Dark Billy turns white

Tiny Billy painted white
Billy

I just bought some white lack and am done with my second time painting a tiny billy (40x106cm). It was dark brown before, nice, but too dark for our living room. I’ll probably need to paint it a third time… we’ll see. Time consuming for sure – I’m happy it’s so tiny.

EDIT: Painted it three times (not the bottom though, I might leave that dark or paint it later on) and pimped it a bit. Bought another floor piece (for 5 EURO) and bought a little basket to hide things (5 EURO as well).

Biopsy it is

It’s been a week since the second doctor approved of me having a probably good tumor in my left breast.
I was relieved that it didn’t grow and that it looks like a typical Fibroadenoma. BUT – it’s probably that way.
Seeing that I couldn’t stop thinking about Tammy the last week and read scary stories about Fibroadenomas being not good at all, I spontaneously called the radiologist this afternoon and made an appointment for a biopsy.

It’s on February 11th, 1pm.
I’ll get a punch biopsy.
I’ll have to get a blood test before then with three values about my blood clotting.

Don’t know how I feel about the biopsy, I’m not scared of it or the results, I just hope everything will go smooth.

21 Days Happiness Challenge – Day 2

Give Gold Stars

21-DayChallenge-BlogPhotoToday’s resolution suggests that you “Give gold stars.” If you’re like me, you may think a lot about wanting gold stars, but in a happy relationship, giving gold stars turns out to be very important, too.

If you tried this resolution, did it boost your feelings of gratitude and tenderness?

Did it make a difference to your happiness?

I do say nice things to the boyfriend when he helps me clean or make dinner. I tell him he did a good job, and I really mean it. It means a lot to me when he helps, when we do things together in our apartment. It’s not a girls job to clean and cook and wash the laundry (if she also works 40+ hours a week).
And seeing that I really appreciate when the Lover helps, I tell him 🙂